Thursday, January 3, 2013

Refelecting back to yesteryear!

In recent months, not sure if it's the aging thing or not. But I have found my-self reflecting back to yesteryear. It a time when no real worries existed. And time seemed to pass slowly. Enjoying being a kid. Hanging out my cousins, riding horses, bicycles, swimming, fishing, and spending time on my grandparents small farm.

Life then seemed so much simpler, but yet so rewarding. I spent most of my young life living with my grandparents. And learned a lot about the value of hard work and the rewards that it would bring. Not just in the form of money, but in the form of self-esteem, happiness, valuing your life, and determination to succeed at what was most important.

Life in their time was much different than it is today. And learning what hardwork was, was very normal. And that rubbed off. I spent many of mornings getting up at 3 am to go with my grandpa to milk cows at the local dairy he worked at (my grandpa was a milk man most of my life). Some of my fondest memories were standing beside him while he would teach me how to milk a cow (sometimes by hand, but mostly by machine). Learning to care for animals at a very young age, helped to creat my work ethic. Learning that hard work like shoveling out the barn, bucking hay on a hot summer night, and getting up before dawn to feed, because someone else depended on me, helped make me who I am today.

Some of my other fond memories of growing up. Was going fishing with my grandparents. It didn't seem to matter what time we would get to the lake or river. But we would stay until way after dark. Then we would go home and cook the catch of the day, and it didn't even matter if it was midnight. I am a grandpa's girl. I was the first born grandchild (of so many I have lost count). So I spent a lot of time with them. I can remember going with my grandpa on his milk route, traveling with him to places like Arkansas to visit family when I was very young. There are even pics of my laying on his chest while sleeping in his recliner when I was sick. Picking veggies out of the garden, going to the sale barn just to see what we could bring home. Him teaching me to drive in his old green truck. Going to garage sales and thrift stores with my grandma (which I still do to this day). Learning to cook, I started cooking when I was very, very young. Making cakes, kool-aid, anything I could stir while sitting on the kitchen floor. And to this day I still love to cook.

I owe a lot to my grandparents for teaching me to want more than just settling. I know most all children love their grandparents, but mine are more than grandparents. My granny and grandpa mean the world to me. And one day when they are no longer with me on earth. They will forever be in my heart and memories. That special place that they will never be forgotten. I do hope that is still very far away. But one thing life has taught me is that you just never know what tomorrow holds. And you should enjoy each day. Tell the ones you love that you love them. And cherish the momories you have, even after new ones can no longer be made.

I love you Granny and Grandpa. Thank you for helping me become the strong woman I am today!!

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Children grow way to fast

Today we found out we were expecting our fourth Boy. We have always wanted a little girl but finding out and confirming what we have already known made it more real. We will be the Parents of four Healthy, Adorable, Characters in there own way Boys. And I can't tell you how happy we are.

Monday my oldest Son will be 17 years old. He is almost Thur School. He has been working for about a year now and still has no clue to what life holds for him. He thinks most things revolve around Girls, Video Games and just plain hanging out with his friends. Boy is he in for a reality check. I think back to when he was first born and find it hard to believe he will be an Adult soon. I'm not sure I'm ready for that as much as he is.

My second son is 12 years old and is just a Character. He can keep you laughing at the stupid things he does. He is beginning his 3rd year of playing Football in the upcoming months. We are so proud of him for learning to be a team player. We love that we can be apart of his life and enjoy helping him become a fine person. In four short months he will begin his last year of Middle School. When I think about how old he is getting I remember the day he began Kindergarten and wish I could go back to that day. I would to keep him little for longer.

My third son turned 6 months today. What a huge gap between their ages but having a new little one has made us feel much younger then we are. We are all so enjoying all the little things he is learning to do. I sure miss the and remember those things the older boys would do. What a blessing.

Now for our forth child. Yes another boy. This one due in September. Our two little ones will be just 11 months apart. And people think we are nuts for having them so close together. Be we feel they will love it. Always having a playmate, Boy I wish I would have had a Sibling so close in age like my Husband and his Brother. They are 364 days apart.

We are unsure at this moment if this will be our last Child. I really don't think so. But for now we are so Blessed with the greatest Gift you could ever receive a Child. So spend as much time with your kids and love them as much as you can because one day you will wake up and they will be grown up with kids of their own and all you will have left is photos and memories of their childhood.

Friday, March 30, 2007


Have you ever just stared at a Globe and wondered what it would be like to see the World. There are so many places I want to go and so many things I want to do before I die I'm not sure there is enough time to do all those things. I have seen a lot of places in this country but there are so many more places I just sit and wonder if they are as beautiful as I imagined they would be. I have always loved to travel and meet new people. Maybe that is why I have lived so many places and have yet to find just one place to stay the rest of my life. With my Husband and I both being a Sagittarius we are known for our love of travel and exploration. That in turn makes us adventurous and always wanting to know what is over the hill and beyond the horizon.

Sit down with your children and study the globe or go on the Internet and look up far off places. Get them interested in seeing the world and all it has to offer. You don't even need to leave the country to find exciting places to visit. Try on your next trip to pull out the map pick somewhere you have never been before and start planning your next adventure. Have you seen the movie RV. Try that for your next adventure. You sure learn a lot more about this country traveling by car. You get to see this you would never see if you traveled by plane. Or better yet have you ever thought about taking a train. that is one thing I have not done but would like to one day.

My dream is to sail around the world. If you have ever really looked at a map of the world you would see you could go around the world by boat and not really even leave the comforts of being close to land. Just think of all the beautiful places you could see then.

The point is don't be closed minded about traveling or being afraid of a new adventure. That's what keeps us young is the adventure. Once you become grounded you die. Maybe not literally but your soul needs the adventure. So sit down with your kids let them help make the plans and get out and explore what life has to offer. Trust me you will never regret spending the time with your kids and seeing new places.

Friday, March 16, 2007

Life as a Mom, Wife and Career driven woman

Looking back at my life I feel I have done pretty well for myself considering I have not attend a College even though I would love to. But have not found the time to do so. And have been raising children form the age of 18. I have been married going on 18 years and have loved this wonderful man as much today as the first day we met. We met through a now mutual friend and became High School sweethearts. Once we started dating life became something worth living to the fullist. We married 6 short months later and have never regrated a single moment.

Life quickly became filled with lots of responsiblilty and children soon followed. In order to become able to care for our new Family we concentrated on what career paths we were currently in. Even if we like those jobs or not. When I first began my life in Retail I told the ladies I worked with I will not do this forever. They all laughed and said they said the same thing. I quickly responded I would be different. Well some 20 years later I am still in Retail and have worked my way from pushing carts at the local grocery store to a successful Store Manager at one of the fastest growing Pharmacy in the nation. Do I love my job anymore today, well somedays. I love certain parts of my job and others I dread daily. But what is most important is with out my career in this field and my success for working hard. My Family is well cared for. You ask why not change what I do, well I would love to. And hopefully in the next few years I will be able to remove myself from the store level and advance my way to a higher position or maybe in a career in a different field all together.

By time I was 23 years old I had 2 children. Both we loved equally. I felt my life was complete so we took measures to ensure no future children would be entering our lives. A year later we found out we were pregnant. We were scared and excited all at the same time. We thought maybe after 2 boy's we would get a little girl. When nature took it's course and as quickly as we found out, the pregnancy was over. Life just was not the same after that. For years I dwelled on the miscarriage. If you have ever had one you know how hard it is to come to terms with it. So around 7 years later I told my Husband I wish to have another child (Hopefully a Girl ) so we began the most stressfull time of our lives. Fertility treatment. Man you talk about a roller coaster ride. With all the meds they have you on and all the mood swings you are not sure after a while who you might be when you get up in the morning. So the treatments begin and the first of 2 rounds of IVF. With all our hopes as high as you can get, They are shattered. The first round ends with another miscarriage. So after a few months we considered another round. We asked if we would be able to have my tubes repaired. We were told our only option was IVF. So we prepared for another round. And nothing. So I began researching other options. A few months later we were on a plane to Georgia to repair my tubes.

After treatment it still took us many more tests, meds and a few more years of trying. So 2 years later and an IUI treatment we found out we were expecting our 3rd child. Hoping as last it was the little girl we were trying for, we found out it was another boy. My Husband and I were really not surprised. We had already prepared ourselfs and were just delighted that we were finally having another child. In October 2006 we welcomed into our life a healthy baby boy. He is just a blessing. I have to say I have been blessed so far with 3 very healthy, adorable and content babies.

Just 3 short months later we found out we were expecting with no help from the Doctor's our 4th child. Never in our lives did we think we would have 2 children just 11 months apart. Our other 2 boy's are 4 years apart. Hoping that because they will be much closer in age that they will have more incommon. So now the wait to find out what we will gifted with this time. After already having 3 boy's I believe in my heart that we will be expecting another boy. I joke with people that we are working on our own Pit Crew. Not knowing what life will bring us in the future we are unsure that this will be our last. If at some point we are gifted once more then life will just be filled the best gift in life you can ever receive, a child.

To some up things, I believe that all things in life have purpose and that you should never dwell on the past and spend as much time with your loved ones as you can because you never know what tomorrow will bring.